Drifting in and out of focus. My weight has actually been stable and I have not been counting calories. All last week I was dealing with severe shoulder and neck pain. Not sure what I did but it took me a lot to go to my classes. I made it to all three though! My gymnastics coach said to keep going but not to overdo it. So I kept on going. Finally on Friday it released the golf ball knot. I could finally think again! If aliens or some invading army wants to take us out....just put us in chronic pain. It is the worst torture bar none.
I haven't been swimming in awhile. Maybe I'll add that in again this week.
I found a cheesecake at Save On that is a single serving with no refined sugar! Every couple weeks I pick one up to indulge in :)
I hope everyone is well!
Cheers
CAT

Guess I was the only one wanting to hit weights class today. Got an awesome one on one workout with the trainer. Good thing too as my world is spinning. I slammed that medicine ball hard today!

So, hubby had his scope yesterday. Starting to feel like we're playing the 'wheel of illness'. Apparently the pancreatitis is a symptom not the cause of his woes. Now their telling us it's colitis and mild chrons. But he has more tests to go yet before we'll know more (I feel like we know less now...what will the next blood tests and ct tell us!?). And so we carry on...
Last night I hit the wall hard and binged. Hard. Up 3lbs this morning :( Eating disorders are a tough one (I will be discussing it further over the next while) and I'm in the midst of a relapse. That's not to say that I haven't learnt a thing or two in coping these last couple years! Time to pull out some of those tools to keep me on track. Steak day today and I already took a detox bath to relax me some. This is why I say weights class was soo good today too! Another tool in my tool box! I'll take some more time this evening and over the next while reaffirming my relationship with food too.
I've kept up my water water water and early to bed vow of late. I can deal with this too. One day at a time!
Cheers
CAT

Legs! We did legs yesterday and I thought for sure I would fall down any stairs I walked the rest of the day. I groaned and moaned all day! Every time my husband looked at me I would laugh at myself. In his supportive way he promised me it would get better. Thinking back on my journey, I know he's right.
It was hard to take the first dose and start the diet. It was hard to cut out the carbs. It was hard to drink sooo much water. It was hard to learn how to eat right for my body and stabilize my weight loss. But all those things are much easier now. With each day I grew stronger in will and developed my knowledge as I went. What I can do now is amazing in comparison to where I was just a year ago!
This too will get easier.
Cheers
CAT

Onto a new week! It's Monday and I'll admit that I have done nothing over the weekend as per workouts. Tomorrow I'm back to weights class.
My area of focus for this week is twofold: sleep and water. Both need to be increased if not doubled! With hubby home all the time I'm finding our bedtime is creeping forward later and later. So to help get me back on track I'm doing a 3 week challenge. We know it takes that long to set the pattern in and make it a habit again. I'm setting bedtime for 10:30pm and water is 2L by 11am. No exceptions! Hopefully this will give me something to focus on besides....well...all the negativity around me lately.
I'm a firm believer that we should all make time for ourselves but, wow, life knows how to make that hard! So, babysteps over the next little while. Water to cleanse and sleep to rejuvenate. I can do this!
Cheers
CAT

I'm going insane! My husband was diagnosed with pancreatitis yesterday. We suspected it might be this but we won't know what the treatment entails until the scope is done mid month. I don't know where to stick myself half the time and I know I'm venting a good portion through my workouts. But I'm also experiencing some poor food choices. Surgery is pretty much a given for him. Soo many unanswered questions! He is not an alcoholic so it could have been from an injury or maybe inherited (that one is really tough as he was adopted and we don't know much about his biological father). I don't know and not sure that even matters now. The problem is here and we have to take things as they come.
Maybe I spent that last 2 years studying health and nutrition so I could be prepared for this challenge. One thing is certain, I will be adjusting his diet to maximize his health! He will likely have to take some digestive aids and possibly insulin but again, we just don't know yet.
I just need the doctors to do their part so he isn't in constant pain. My heart aches for him and I feel helpless at the moment. I think we're both scared right now...
Send us positive energies my friends! He needs all the white light we can get right now!
Much love
CAT