A few weeks back I was pushed over the edge. I won't go into great details but a very unresponsive and impossible to communicate with nurse put me into a state of pure rage. Let me tell you, this isn't an easy task! I mustered up all my strength and as my hands shook uncontrollably I closed my eyes and focused. I didn't care who was looking at me or what others were saying (she was still bellowing something in the background), I simply focused on my body. My heart and breath was racing so I took soothing slow breaths. I opened my eyes and watched my hands slowly shake less and less as I breathed. I refused to talk or anything until my body settled.
Once I was sure I was calm enough I looked to the other nurse who had been watching me in awe. I said plainly, what medications were changed today?
My point is: it is useless to do anything but that which will benefit the moment. I treat my hunger attacks (read emotional binge attacks) the same. Where ever I am when it hits, I stop and feel my body. Is my stomach actually rumbling or is my throat tight? Is it real hunger or emotion? When it is emotion I can say to that inner voice screaming at me: Stop. I refuse to fight with the unreasonable and throwing food at will not solve the problem (though I would have loved to have thrown a pie in that woman's face)!!!
CAT
Once I was sure I was calm enough I looked to the other nurse who had been watching me in awe. I said plainly, what medications were changed today?
My point is: it is useless to do anything but that which will benefit the moment. I treat my hunger attacks (read emotional binge attacks) the same. Where ever I am when it hits, I stop and feel my body. Is my stomach actually rumbling or is my throat tight? Is it real hunger or emotion? When it is emotion I can say to that inner voice screaming at me: Stop. I refuse to fight with the unreasonable and throwing food at will not solve the problem (though I would have loved to have thrown a pie in that woman's face)!!!
CAT
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