I was going to start fat loading today but it didn't happen. Yesterday was my brother's 40th birthday and, well, let's just say that I drank a little too much last night, lol. So when I woke up at 8am to do my first drops I knew right away that today was not the day. I went back to sleep until 10am. After a hardly Brunch of bacon and eggs with a toasted tomato sandwich, I am feeling tons better. I must have been dehydrated this morning because I weighed in almost 2lbs lighter than yesterday. I'm sitting right around 184 which is still 2lbs up from LDW but not much I can do about it now. Time to move on and get back on the plan. We'll see what it is tomorrow. I'm thinking I might wait until next weekend to load just because I was supposed to do this over my weekend (which happens to be Sunday and Monday) and I have a busy Tuesday this week making it a hard day to do my second load on. We'll see how the week unfolds. I'm sick of changing my start date and want to get on with it already! I wish I hadn't drank so much now since tom left yesterday and the timing was perfect. Grrrrr! Only myself to blame. I guess I will stand as an example of how NOT to start a round this time, lol. Hey, we're all people doing the best we can and I'm just keeping it real. Nothing goes exactly as planned so there is no use in getting mad.
I decided I needed to regroup today to help me get my mind in the right frame. I took a drive down a road that I have driven many times before. It is a winding country road that I just love. As I glided along the familiar stretch, I noticed the majestic trees with their thick branches blowing in the wind. They loomed over me as I passed them and I thought, wow, these trees has been here longer then me and have stood witness over my passing at so many different times in my life. I allowed my memories to flow through me of all the times I have driven this road and all the emotions of my life to flood my consciousness. Then I released them all to the trees, my old friends, and asked them to hold my story safe as I know they always have. I felt at peace with myself and where I am in my life. I revelled in my self acceptance and felt joy in all that I am. I wish this feeling for everyone.
With all this in mind, I approach my next step with confidence.
I decided I needed to regroup today to help me get my mind in the right frame. I took a drive down a road that I have driven many times before. It is a winding country road that I just love. As I glided along the familiar stretch, I noticed the majestic trees with their thick branches blowing in the wind. They loomed over me as I passed them and I thought, wow, these trees has been here longer then me and have stood witness over my passing at so many different times in my life. I allowed my memories to flow through me of all the times I have driven this road and all the emotions of my life to flood my consciousness. Then I released them all to the trees, my old friends, and asked them to hold my story safe as I know they always have. I felt at peace with myself and where I am in my life. I revelled in my self acceptance and felt joy in all that I am. I wish this feeling for everyone.
With all this in mind, I approach my next step with confidence.
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